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I was told by one spiritual guide that I should free some parrots after purchasing them from “BAHELIA”.I have been trying but some how they were not available. Today,my wife purchased four Parrots.One was released there and three were brought home and I released them at the top of roof of my mother’s house at Sitapur.

It gave me so much pleasure that I resolved that I will make it regular activity to buy the birds and free them, if GOD gives me money for it. It was really good experience.

One small episode which haunt me every time and I remember it so sharply that when ever any reference comes, it moves in-front of my eyes as a movie.

WHEN I WAS FOUR YEARS OLD, I WAS LIVING AT MY NATIVE VILLAGE AT DALEL NAGAR, SITAPUR. IT WAS ABOUT 10 A.M. ONE GAURAIYA WAS PLAYING IN MY COURT YAERD AND I WAS WATCHING HER. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT CAME TO MY MIND, I PICKED UP A SMALL STONE AND I THREW IT AIMING HER HEAD AND IT HIT CORRECTLY AND THE GAURAIYA DIED IMMEDIATELY.

I TOLD MY GRAND MOTHER THAT I DID IT. SHE SAID, WHY ? I HAD NO ANSWER. SHE TOOK IT AWAY AND THREW IT OUTSIDE IN THE GARDEN BUT IT NEVER WENT AWAY FROM MY MIND. AND TODAY, ALSO WHEN I WAS FREEING THE PARROTS, THE WHOLE EPISODE PASSED THROUGH IN MY MIND.

Sorry Dear Gauraiya, please excuse me. I know that I have to pay for it because in GOD’s account, it is registered. Similar feelings, I have when I see a frog because I killed many frogs (Rana tigrena) in the name of practicing dissection for my biology classes. I used to puncture his brain to make him unconscious, how painful it must be when used to pierce needle in his head. GOD, please excuse me for this act which was done in ignorance. After the dissection, I used to boil it to take out it’s Skelton to make the whole body skeleton for understanding biology because I was aiming to become DOCTOR as my father was DOCTOR.

I feel bad that I killed so many frogs in the name of this aim which was a illusion.It could never be achieved, because it was not destined for me. Please excuse me GOD for these episodes and my ignorance.

Satyen Yadav August 21, 2018, Budha Nagar, Sitapur, U.P